May 5, 2007 Email

I'm feeling pretty unstable right now. Cam went to our sister-in-law's birthday party and Adi and I stayed here. I don't really feel like I can talk right now. I don't know what's going on - if this is the miscarriage - if I'm just bleeding because i've over exerted myself - what. It seems like a cruel joke to have seen a heartbeat if i'm just going to miscarry now but I have to trust that God's way is the best way. I feel messed up right now. Whatever. I guess if it weren't for all the technology we have I wouldn't have had a clue in the first place. Sorry so vague, I don't know what else to say...