So a series of recent events that I won't rehash has really gotten me thinking hard about the state of being angry at God. The number of times that I've been angry at God in the past 6 months spills far beyond counting on my fingers and toes.
I've often taken out my frustration in life on God, pleading with Him to change my circumstances or do something to help me and my expectations are high because He is a God who can do all things! But what if He did everything everyone asked Him to? I think the movie Bruce Almighty comically touches on that a bit and the truth is that the whole world would be way more messed up than it already is if God answered all of our prayers exactly as we desired.
That realization doesn't make it an easier to not get angry with God when life seems to take a turn for the worse. But this morning I was praying and asked myself, how often do I blame God for myself. How often am I angry at God when really, deep down, I'm angry at myself. For a failure, or a mistake, a loss, a circumstance. And I felt like God was saying that it was OK for me to be mad at Him sometimes, though even better to look deeper and realize when I'm really just mad at myself. That's where God is for me right now, that's where God wants to change me.
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